Tuesday, March 27, 2007
I have been really blunt with my words
Seems to be hurting everyone around me
What's wrong with me?
Why cant i control my insensitive words?
My anger?
Have i become worse?
More and more straight forward?
Getting insensitive towards people's feelings?
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I realise i am being blunt to a particular person.
But the things i mentioned was for the person's own good.
So is that considered a good or bad thing?
Then i received a feedback from that person as below:
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"sometimes ur words are fucking insensitive
and nt as if i offended u for fuck sake
really. it spoils the whole trying-to-talk-to-you-paramore
tts my point.".
"whatever la, its you anyway
perhaps ur other friends accepted u for who u are alrd".
Was i that bad? i did stop and think.
Was my comments too much?
Was i insensitive?
What the hell is this person's problem to be so mean?
Oh wait, am i even in the right position to comment that.
Since i am being mean to others as well?
How have i offended you?
So much for support and being there when you needed a listening ear.
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Wash my hands off you
ordinary friend
period.
Vanessa Monteiro Let her Opinion Out At... 12:03 PM
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Thursday, March 22, 2007
I have planned a 21st Birthday Bash.
Hitting 21 is a huge thing to most people.
For me is just another year.
But the excuse to have something major.
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Been planning for a month
Design of the card
sending out of invitations
Food tasting for catering
Token of appreciation for my Guests
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I have a budget to meet.
I have a certain amount of friends that i can invite
I would love to invite everyone i know
Can i?
My parents are financing this.
I have to follow suit.
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So i have made my guest list and sent out the invitation.
Some of my non invited friends are aware of the party but are so understanding
Some can be so thick skinned.
Expecting to be invited coz I AM YOUR FRIEND
Now there's terms to it if the person is invited
I am TOLD to do things for MY PARTY?
You SHOULD invite this person.
What's this? nobility?
Have you given a thought being told to invite someone who i already decided not to. how happy can i get knowing the person would be coming? Know thing that this person is not really welcomed by the rest of my guest as well. Who is to entertain this person? How exciting and happy can the person be being invited to my party in the end? Every other outings we had as a group is already been excluded. what difference does it makes if i dont invite the person for my party already? is like just another event that is not invited AGAIN. Go reflect and think why is this happening to oneself? Do you really deserve the invitation.
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I'm frustrated
I'm upset
I'm shocked
To know that you would even think of asking me to do so.
Is not about "we were once close"
Is about situation right now should i invite or is the person deserving.
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Weeks ago i have already made my stand not to invite this person
My decision stays.
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Birthday Bash is suppose to be happy
the excitement of the day nearing
the preparations
all the planning falling together.
not unhappy stuff like that.
Vanessa Monteiro Let her Opinion Out At... 4:45 PM
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Friday, March 9, 2007
Been on the phone with Sasa.
Almost everyday average 4 hours since Sunday.
Her Cries, Her feelings, Her little gurl desire...
Breaks my heart hearing all that.
Meeting up with her Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday in a row
Be with her.
Occupy her time to stop her from thinking anything else.
Thursday, Yesterday.
She have dropped the idea of the Tattoo.
She grab a stick of fishball in the afternoon.
First food since Saturday.
Drank a big gulp from 7-11
Better than those alcohol.
Came evening and she WANT to eat.
I'm glad you're better my dear Twinnie.
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People, dont think of silly things to hurt yourself when facing a break up.
What you need is friends to hang out with you all the time
Kinda keep your mind off everything that has happened.
Dessert will do you good.
Vanessa Monteiro Let her Opinion Out At... 2:30 PM
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Wednesday, March 7, 2007
Hello.
My First post in my new personal private blog.
I just create and none of my friends know of this blog.
I feel good.
Now i can really say what i wanna say.
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I love you for sentimental reasons
I hope you do believe me
I'll give you my heart
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I love you and you alone were meant for me
Please give your loving heart to me
And say we'll never part
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I think of you every morning
Dream of you every night
Darling, i'm never lonely
Whenever you are in sight
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I love you for sentimental reasons
I hope you do believe me
I've given you my heart
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I love you for sentimental reasons
I hope you do believe me
I've given you my heart
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Sasa, i know you are feeling like that about Yanyi
But is time you stop thinking this way.
Dont cut yourself to feel pain
Vanessa Monteiro Let her Opinion Out At... 10:20 PM
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